Log In The Forest

Log in the forest
I worry you are lonesome.
Would you like some company?
You may have ticks, or bugs, a lot of insects.
But I have a few seconds I can stay.

Man With Dog

Man with dog
Will you be staying awhile?
My thoughts are venturing,
My speech is weak,
But if you stay
 A while
maybe we can
   Speak?

Evaporate into eternity

Evaporate into eternity
The universe took me by the hand.
Mother nature led the way.
The weeping willow swayed
tears were shed, but happiness peaked through,
like a glorious morning sunrise.
I don't feel empty,
But I don't feel whole.
Maybe I'm made up of everything.
Like a black hole.

Meaningless Galaxies.

If there truly are, billions of stars, and planets, and even humans.
Why do we choose only a few human beings to surround our entire existence around?
Billions of people in the world, and you choose the worst ones possible.
The ones that will corrupt your life, and make you the person you don't want to be.
You settle, because that's what humans have been doing for trillions of years.
Settling in colonies, settling in communities. All of this settling, and you know what its gotten us?
NOTHING.


You're brain might hurt after this,
But you are no more special than that spec of dust, that DR. SEUSS talks about, in "Horton hears a who." There are tons of people, and animals, and even bugs, who's lives are more meaningful than yours. And when you die, and your body rots into our earth, what will be left of this meaningless life that you lived?

Life is what you make it,
So make it fucking count.


-Lauren w. Feb 14th.

Word vomit

I don't like the person I've become..
I hate me.
All these thoughts, in my brain.
I'm going insane over here.
But you can't tell, because this smile.
this smile on my face, is hiding my non existent feelings.
my self loathing, my attention seeking.
Smile's hide a lot of things.
The pain is real, but no one seems to care.
"You just want attention" They say.
but what will they do, when you've lost your mind.
and that smile can't hide it anymore.
then one day, your brains explode on the floor.
The gun drops to the floor,
A smile won't hide the pain anymore.

um..

New year, Time for change.
But what if I Don't want to change,
What if I don't actually know HOW to change.
I have a built up need for change, but every inch
of my body is telling me to stay the same.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Anxiety runs through me,
pulsing, pulsing.
New years resolutions.
weight loss remedies
new year, new me.

I sink down in my chair, and try to hide from it all.
I feel my heart beating faster, faster.
I break down.
I start to cry..

why am I crying.
I can be who ever I want to be, and do what ever I want.
Society can't conform me into a box, like everyone else.
Screw society.

Wait... I am society.

Painless sleep

I lie here. awake.
Thoughts wandering about my brain.
All the what ifs,
who cares,
why this,
I have to do that.
All the pain, one person can endure.
Is a sure cause for sleepless nights.
But pain, is just a memory.
Of a once happy time.
To feel pain.
Is better.
than not feeling anything at all.