The less we say about it, the better.

I was happier then

Now I’m dead and fried

I’m so lonely

Coffee can’t help my situation

And weed just makes me sleep

Looking for the good life

I may never find. 

nothings  wrong

sorry not sorry

Trying to prove to you

Im sorry

But I’m not

Ill tell you what you want to hear

If you go away

Looking at the cracks on the sidewalk

To forget this sad sad mess

So gross and discombobulated

It makes my spine tingle

You never finish what you start

You’ve never had a broken heart

Leave me alone. 

For Caitlin

I can never focus,
so many things on my brain.
I try to sit and watch a movie.
But all I do is stare at the screen.

My eyes wander all around the room,
I think about the things going on in my life.
I catch a glimpse of the movie.

I look over at the fish tank.
My mind wanders to when I was 8,
and I tried to save a fish from the state fair.

Back to the movie.
I can't focus.

I hear a noise outside,
my eyes search for the source.
A fat squirrel glares at me from a tree.
He must be having a bad day as well.

One last time, I look at the screen,
The movie is half way over,
all I've gotten from it is that there are two characters,
their probably in love, its probably a happy movie.

I turn it off, because I can't stand happy movies.
Not today, not this week,
maybe i'll feel better later.

Yeah, later..

A boat

The boat hovered 30 feet, in the middle of a massive lake.
If we sank, would you swim, or would you float next to me
caressing  me with your body.
We sit atop in a massive cushioned seat
 your naked body near me
I stoke your chest, with my thumb and index finger.
I try to stay in the moment, but the massive glowing stars are diverting my attention.
we make love, with passion and understanding.
I let out a sigh, and we fall asleep, hand in hand,
bodies intertwined.
I dream glowing colors, and non-existent shapes.
But your face still remains
hiding behind these fluttering eyelids.

Hot nights

Pieces of you, lying next to me.
The sweat from this hot summer night, gliding down my face.
I'm thinking of you, but are you thinking of me?
You're touching my body, but are you really near me..

Lost. Again

I don't feel anything.
Am I here?
Or is my mind

                                               Over there.

Lost in a sea of thought.

A zombie lost in the array of drugs.

stars

Its been a long day.
I rest my body on the cold, hard ground.
And look up and the illuminating stars.
Shining bright, constantly.
I can't even think things through.
So I just look up, and let my mind go blank.