Him

I remember that,
looking at him hurt.
My heart, my soul, my eyes.
It Stung.
The way his tired eyes looked at his book,
his dimples slightly peaking through with the concentration on his face.
It pained me to stare at him,
but it was impossible to look away...

Broken little pieces

The people she surrounded herself with were broken.
Their lives were messes that she tried to fix.
Their brains deteriorating from all the drugs they took, to stay numb.
They were broken people, shattered into pieces on the floor.
She cut herself trying to pick up the pieces.
and that's when she realized,
she found comfort in the blood,
because it was familiar..
and maybe she was broken too.

Messy

Life is made up of messes, small, unholy, and unforgivable messes.

But it is rare, and very beautiful.

Life is one big beautiful mess.

Good bye love

I know I miss you,
but I don't know why.
You treated me like shit,
but you understood me.
When you kissed me, I forgot everything.
You believed in me,
then you'd tare me down.
This can't be love.
Please forget me now.

Fuck it.

She knew what she was doing was wrong,
she knew it was bad,
and that it wouldn't end well.
But as she stood there,
taking a hit,
she looked at the guy in her bed.
And she said.
fuck it.

In-sign-if-i-cant

I look up at the stars, and can't help but feel insignificant.
A trillion stars, 9 planets that we know of, galaxies, black holes,
Astronaut waste...
I am but an atom of blue,
in an ocean.
These stars shine so bright, I am dull.
I am a pin point, in an endless universe.
Insignificant
in
sign
if
i
cant. ...

Thump Thump Thump

The sun shines on my pale skin
purple, and green veins peeking through.
The heart beat in my chest, suggest that i'm alive,
but the emptiness makes me feel askew.
Life can be so lonely, we live alone, we die alone.
But if you're lucky, you'll find a person,
that makes that emptiness in your chest become
a steady heart beat.
Thump thump thump

Uneasy

There's a lump in my throat
that won't seem to go away,
thoughts of you, keep coming to me,
steadily throughout the day.
I can't seem to make this feeling go away...
As the sun progresses in the sky,
the time slowly passing me by,
wind blowing, it speaks to me, sending messages of you my way.
The angels tell me,
everything will be
OK

Table for one

Winds blowing
People passing me by.
Does the expression on my face bother you?
Avoiding eye contact, leads to being lonesome.
Empty chairs next to me, one place set at the table, my phone never rings.
If I smiled, would you talk to me, or would my usual expression scare you away?
My door bell never rings, dinner for one please.
I have a lot of time to think.
The queen bed I sleep upon, has enough room for two.
If I asked you to stay awhile,
would you?

Hollow Moon

Hollow Moon
Why do you stare at me?
I'm trying to sleep
Let me be!
My thoughts keep wandering,
and your crater filled surface
is bothering me,
that smirk upon your pale face.
I close the curtain
will you leave my thoughts be,
or peak from the shadows
and follow me?

Objectifying inanimate objects

Leaf! Leaf! In the tree
Should I stay a while?
Or let you be...
Wait. Are you dead?
Are you alive?
Should I crunch you,
and let you free
to the wind?
(Leaf Cremation)

Log In The Forest

Log in the forest
I worry you are lonesome.
Would you like some company?
You may have ticks, or bugs, a lot of insects.
But I have a few seconds I can stay.

Man With Dog

Man with dog
Will you be staying awhile?
My thoughts are venturing,
My speech is weak,
But if you stay
 A while
maybe we can
   Speak?

Evaporate into eternity

Evaporate into eternity
The universe took me by the hand.
Mother nature led the way.
The weeping willow swayed
tears were shed, but happiness peaked through,
like a glorious morning sunrise.
I don't feel empty,
But I don't feel whole.
Maybe I'm made up of everything.
Like a black hole.