What I remember of my dream last night. For a future book maybe..

I moved into a new town, it was small and all the kids were slightly secretive. Were getting ready for something that I didn't know about. some kind of hunger games shit, but different, there were like sharks. alot of talking later, we come to a huge lake, and it turns kind of spy kids like?
all I remember is there is a big yellow tarp, and we start off with that, and then go into the water and there are sharks, but at first they are suppose to nudge you and then one eats a boy at the end. girl doesn't like me. lots of boys, chad. my mom. "It" kind of woods.  idk whateves

Walk on

There will come a time, when the coward in me

will run away, and get lost within the trees.

Memories running freely with the souls of the lost and hopeful.

People will see each other for what they really are, instead of 

their clothes, and appearance.

 But our existence has serious side effects. 

People see what they want, and hear what they shouldn't.

It leaves people with delicate hearts broken on the floor. 

We have chemical imbalances, they make us weak and 

unfocused on the good in life.

Well, you're never going to see, so let it be,

and walk on.

Suicide.

Tomorrow I'll be quicker, i'll escape my thoughts, and leave the blanket behind.
Things are clouded and grey, but I see the forecast clearing up.
Tomorrow i'll be brighter, no longer in black and white.
The monsters in my nightmares use to be alive,
now they are vacating my once hallow heart.
The rising sun is whispering my name.
It's telling me to come out of the darkness,
and let him shine on my soul.
But my feet can't move,
something is holding them down.
The darkness doesn't want me to go,
"Stay with me, it's better in the dark" it says.
I scream as it starts dragging me back,
but I fight it and the sun grabs my hand.
Now the light is my future and the darkness is my past.
Never again darkness, Never again.

Born dying.

The second we are born, we start dying. So this is not life, this is death.
We are constantly dying, we bruise, we bleed. We suffer in silence.
This is not heaven, this is hell we are fighting. 







(first line, from http://glas-klar.tumblr.com/post/64121200436/0penchest-the-second-we-are-born-we-start on tumblr)

LOST

Darkness came over me.
Tears ran down my face.
But what are you left with,
when the tears are gone,
and you feel nothing?
Pain, sorrow, regret,
it all build up inside me,
I screamed so loud,
hoping that would make it
escape my body.
But nothing worked.
I am now stuck in a world
where nothing is worth while.
And everything I once loved..
brings me pain and sorrow.

temporary happiness

Though happiness is temporary,
I'd like to spend every minute of it with you.
And when the ups, and the downs appear,
I'd hope that you'd be there,
with open arms and an open heart.
To save me from the darkness,
that often appears in my heart.

Exposed.

My scars are shown, I can no longer hide them.
You've taken away my sleeves.
They are painful and sore,
My blood is humming in my veins.
You won't listen,
Please, believe my lies, I plead.
And maybe we can give it one more try.